Verin lets himself break, then. Not in the way that's probably coming, but he lets go of something he's been holding back since the Lucid Bastion when Essek kisses him that way. They have shared so much and Verin wants to remind himself that he hasn't lost everything. His lips part at the touch of Essek's tongue and Verin moves until he's fully over his brother, intent on properly getting between his thighs.

He's taken lovers in Bazzoxan but he's never felt for anyone what he still feels for Essek. He's cared for people he's taken to bed and maintained friendships with several, easy relationships with clear expectations. At no point has Verin ever offered love or exclusivity. Regardless of what his partners may have wanted, it isn't difficult for anyone to understand that mindset in a place like that. He has missed the ease he feels with Essek and he knows he can be vulnerable here. They have always kept each other safe. They have always shared intimacy that Verin has never offered anyone else.

"Too long," he whispers between kisses. "I should have come."

They both had their reasons, but in hindsight they feel like pitiful excuses when their bond is so close. Verin strokes his fingers into Essek's hair, tipping his head back as he deepens the kiss. If Essek needs him, Verin could never refuse him.